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Where do I go from here? Any ideas?

I am 48. I've been taking care of three kids, parents with Alzheimer's, depression and a painful back--bulging disc. I am going crazy and need to do SOMETHING with my life! Something for me. So--I got on anti-depressants--they are doing their job. I'm in a better frame of mind and they also help with the pain in my back. My dad passed away a couple months ago and my mom's new Alzheimer's meds are doing great. 16 yr old is still giving me grays--but, hey--he's 16. That's his job. Details about me--I've travelled extensively, I've had over 70 jobs (yes, sometimes 2 or 3 at a time) since 15--most between ages of 15-30. They were learning experiences. Had a college journalism scholarship, left after first semester to travel. I had my own restaurant. Last two jobs were as a barista at the airport and four years as a weekly columnist for the newspaper. I'm good at many things and a very fast learner. IQ is around 140-but that means jack if you don't expand upon it. I can write, draw, do interior design, sell, speak in front of large groups, teach, know most all crafts, cake decorating, most computer applications, makeup artist, organizer, fund-raiser, and many other things I can't think of at the moment. All this yet I can't figure out what I want to do. I feel like a frumpy, fat, old woman. Last couple years has sorta taken the wind out of me. Any ideas? Oh and BTW Never been fired from a job. I have different resumes depending on what job I would want. If it was in the food industry-I used those type jobs, etc. With the exception of one job--I've gotten every job I ever interviewed for...

Public Comments

1. hey! you sound like a very intelligent, well-rounded woman who uses her talents to help others. that makes you beautiful, too! i know how it is to be in a place where you don't know what to do with your life. the only answer i can give you that has helped me is my relationship with the Lord. Psalms 37: 4-5 says, Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in Him... that means if you have a personal relationship with the Lord, He will guide you to follow His will. that's the best path you can take! consider your Heavenly Father when you make your descision, OK?
2. Out of all the jobs and things you have done what has given you the most satisfaction and enjoyment? That is what you should do.
3. what you need is something stimulating,interesting,and challenging without the running like you use to,where you can also keep an eye on the wild one.(hair color works wonders on those grays)lol. how about writing a book,maybe about taking a stand on an interesting subject.advancement for women,how to encourage kids to stay in school,(look how far it got you)or an easy healthy recipe book for people on the go, etc.you would make an excellent guidance counselor(if pay isn't an issue) study violin classical piano or drums. go back to school and get a degree,or study a language you always wanted to try..that way you are out of the house,challenging your brain and socializing.plus you have deadlines.as i journalist,you know that's half the rush..... and part of the reason for depression is that you are not feeling the exhileration of adrenalin.but first of all go out and treat yourself to a make-over,spa day,and some new clothes.once you feel good,you can conquer anything.it doesn't matter what you do as long as it satisfies you....one more item -you have been through a lot personally,it takes time to heal.