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Feel like an outcast?

My whole life I've felt like an outcast. I don't have any best friends just friends i hang out at school with. Majority of my cousins are grown and those that aren't either live in another state or have other plans and don't consider me hanging out with them. I'm either at work or at school. When I'm not at school or work then i'm at home. I'm hardly ever invited anywhere (movies, restaurant, etc.).I'm always asking my mother to go to the movies with me b/c i have no one else to go with. I don't have a boyfriend ,never been in love and never been kissed. I go shopping by myself. There are times that I'm invited to go to the movies with someone or to a sleepover but that's like twice a year. I don't understand whats wrong b/c obviously something is wrong with me (am i ugly? do i smell bad? do i have something on my face?) I can't be ugly b/c every says i should be model (even ppl i dont know. no lie). I love to have fun, love movies, reading, and music. I'm very ambitious, I want to go to college and major in finance, human resources and interior design and become a financial planner/ real estate agent/ interior designer. Have all A's and one C in the devils class AP Language (the teacher is horrible). I know what i want in a boyfriend. And i know i can be great friend. Well i am to my classmates but I'm just waiting for someone to be great friend back. I watch movies all the time and i think that it has alot to do with my head being in the clouds. I want the romantic love you see in romance novels and movies- that has alot to do with my standards for a man. the "IT"boys at school say that I stuck up but really they never spoke to me to know who i truly am. Everyone around me has a boyfriend and go out on weekends which makes me feel lonely and out of place. The only friends i have is music, movies, and books which is kind of depressing. My parents are proud of me b/c i'm so open minded and not one dimensional. I into the green movement and i try to get my parents to be Eco friendly which is very hard b/c we have know ecofriendly clothing stores and whatnot. We just have recycling companies that don't really recycle everything. They oppose composting but i don't what i can. I just hope and pray that my future is so much brighter than my present and past. Any advice you have for me. What do you think is wrong? want more any info just ask.

Public Comments

1. I know exactly how you feel. all i can say is open your self up, and dont fear rejection. if you talk to a lot of people, someones bound to talk back. a conversation leads to another, and before you know it, youve got a new friend. ask and you shall recieve.
2. same thing with me. Im in high school and feel like i have no real friends. everyone seems so fake. I have all these plans to study in another country and live all over the world. I feel like an outcast. I don't really hang out with anyone, go to school then home. Noone really invites me to parties or the movies either. When I talk noone seems to hear me. People think im handsome but strangely enough I've never ever had a girlfriend in my life before. I wonder whats wrong with me, I mean I say hi and im friendly enough and can keep a conversation going and am funny. It really confuses me and makes me angry at times. I currently dont have an answer to your question but its comforting to know that someone out there is similar to me.
3. You sound awesome! Obviously I don't know you, but I can tell that you're smart, articulate, conscientious, and so much more. I'm in the same position of not having friends and always feeling like an outcast and whatnot. Being conscientious, as you seem to be, can really make you feel like you're set apart from everyone else because you think about things more and care about things that others don't understand as much. Just remember that you're awesome and there's nothing wrong with you; you just haven't met the people you really click with yet. Try to go places where you know you can meet people with similar interests. For instance, since you're interested in the environment, there might be some sort of club or organization you could participate in where you could meet other young people like yourself. Just because the people at school don't click as much with you doesn't mean no one will. There are loads of people out there and you'll find them if you keep a lookout for them. :)