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I get along with a lot of ppl but feel like I'm outside looking in?

My whole life I've felt like an outcast. I don't have any best friends just friends i hang out at school with. Majority of my cousins are grown and those that aren't either live in another state or have other plans and don't consider me hanging out with them. I'm either at work or at school. When I'm not at school or work then i'm at home. I'm hardly ever invited anywhere (movies, restaurant, etc.).I'm always asking my mother to go to the movies with me b/c i have no one else to go with. I don't have a boyfriend ,never been in love and never been kissed. I go shopping by myself. There are times that I'm invited to go to the movies with someone or to a sleepover but that's like twice a year. I don't understand whats wrong b/c obviously something is wrong with me (am i ugly? do i smell bad? do i have something on my face?) I can't be ugly b/c every says i should be model (even ppl i dont know. no lie). I love to have fun, love movies, reading, and music. I'm very ambitious, I want to go to college and major in finance, human resources and interior design and become a financial planner/ real estate agent/ interior designer. Have all A's and one C in the devils class AP Language (the teacher is horrible). I know what i want in a boyfriend. And i know i can be great friend. Well i am to my classmates but I'm just waiting for someone to be great friend back. I watch movies all the time and i think that it has alot to do with my head being in the clouds. I want the romantic love you see in romance novels and movies- that has alot to do with my standards for a man. the "IT"boys at school say that I stuck up but really they never spoke to me to know who i truly am. Everyone around me has a boyfriend and go out on weekends which makes me feel lonely and out of place. The only friends i have is music, movies, and books which is kind of depressing. My parents are proud of me b/c i'm so open minded and not one dimensional. I into the green movement and i try to get my parents to be Eco friendly which is very hard b/c we have know ecofriendly clothing stores and whatnot. We just have recycling companies that don't really recycle everything. They oppose composting but i don't what i can. I just hope and pray that my future is so much brighter than my present and past. Any advice you have for me. What do you think is wrong? want more any info just ask.

Public Comments

1. There is nothing wrong with you. You just seem to have trouble relating to people. It could be Social Anxiety Disorder, Asperger's, or maybe you're just not good at social relations. It doesn't have to stay that way. Is there anyone you can reach out to? Is there someone at work or school you could ask to go grab some lunch or dinner with one day? Do you go to church? Try inviting someone with you to grab something to eat and build a relationship from there. If you keep trying, reaching out to people, and don't give up, you should form some friendships. Best of luck!
2. Hey girl stop beating yourself up I have the same prob. My only friends are my parents and some of my sisters oh yes and Jesus, i like your style and to tell you the truth it won't be very easy to have a boyfriend with such a style as yours. But don't worry too much about that it's a good thing because for a person with your ambition you need not get involved with a guy or friends who might not encourage you in this area. Trust me it's difficult to find friends who support you in achieving great things,they are either angry or envious of you studying and getting good grades. Instead of building you up they seek to destroy you and your dream, so honey just hang in there and be patient your time will come. And keep up the good grades and work hard towards your goals, you'll find someone suitable soon your future WILL be brighter than your present if you don't give up. Nothing is wrong with you and don't let anyone tell you ohterwise. You see as a young woman if you wanna be successful, you have to be smart, guys would want you if you give them sex only then (most times). If a guy respects you and himself, he would not seek that from you so don't be fooled. Go ahead with your studies and wait for the right one to come along you got your whole life ahead of you.May Jehovah Bless and Keep you through all this.