My whole life I've felt like an outcast. I don't have any best friends just friends i hang out at school with. Majority of my cousins are grown and those that aren't either live in another state or have other plans and don't consider me hanging out with them. I'm either at work or at school. When I'm not at school or work then i'm at home. I'm hardly ever invited anywhere (movies, restaurant, etc.).I'm always asking my mother to go to the movies with me b/c i have no one else to go with. I don't have a boyfriend ,never been in love and never been kissed. I go shopping by myself. There are times that I'm invited to go to the movies with someone or to a sleepover but that's like twice a year. I don't understand whats wrong b/c obviously something is wrong with me (am i ugly? do i smell bad? do i have something on my face?) I can't be ugly b/c every says i should be model (even ppl i dont know. no lie). I love to have fun, love movies, reading, and music. I'm very ambitious, I want to go to college and major in finance, human resources and interior design and become a financial planner/ real estate agent/ interior designer. Have all A's and one C in the devils class AP Language (the teacher is horrible). I know what i want in a boyfriend. And i know i can be great friend. Well i am to my classmates but I'm just waiting for someone to be great friend back. I watch movies all the time and i think that it has alot to do with my head being in the clouds. I want the romantic love you see in romance novels and movies- that has alot to do with my standards for a man. the "IT"boys at school say that I stuck up but really they never spoke to me to know who i truly am. Everyone around me has a boyfriend and go out on weekends which makes me feel lonely and out of place. The only friends i have is music, movies, and books which is kind of depressing. My parents are proud of me b/c i'm so open minded and not one dimensional. I into the green movement and i try to get my parents to be Eco friendly which is very hard b/c we have know ecofriendly clothing stores and whatnot. We just have recycling companies that don't really recycle everything. They oppose composting but i don't what i can. I just hope and pray that my future is so much brighter than my present and past. Any advice you have for me. What do you think is wrong? want more any info just ask.